Wednesday, August 15, 2012

The Journey

I'm so excited to be married to Reagan and being a mom to the funniest, smartest, and most dynamic children on earth;-). Sorry I'm a little bias. Reagan and I have had a long journey through many unexpected places. We met in Denver at YWAM (Youth With A Mission) and we made it through a really bumpy and yet God ordained courtship. We married and moved to Georgia and almost immediately had "little Sommers". Taylor our oldest was dedicated at 2 weeks old on our 1 year anniversary. We held a pattern of popping out babies every couple of years until my son, Noah was born in 2006. We have 3 children Taylor, McKenzie, and Noah. I love them and in the middle of marriage and babies are the details of our life that played significant roles in who we are and how we know and serve God. Reagan had a radical face to face with the Lord late in His teens. He grew up in a small town and whether it was lack of teaching or lack of seeking he had missed the value of the Gospel until that time of His life. It was then he decided to delve into the Bible and see if there was more to Jesus than what he had known, there his world was rocked and he was forever changed. I'm an only child. I can't remember getting "saved" but I do remember growing up in church. I went to sunday school and during revivals I'd lay in my Nanny's lap and she's rub my head as I dosed and caught bits and pieces of sermons. My mom made sure I was at church and she would encourage me to trust God and in many things and I did. As many others have before me, as kid I experienced my parents divorce and suffered many fears about who I was. When I was 13 years old I remember having a significant experience with the Lord that changed my inward makeup. I began to face fear and find more and more identity in Christ. There are many chapters in both of our lives that built us and waves that crashed against us, knocking us over a little here and there. I wish my story was a bit more perfect and Reagan would admit the same I'm sure. When we met we were two fairly solid young people with huge God dreams. When we found ourselves at YWAM-Denver and we loved every minute of it. Reagan's conversion had made his passion for world missions stoked as he had always been tender concerning God's heart for the lost. For me I loved prayer and people and I felt a strong pull toward intercession for the lost and broken. It's funny because right now as I write this I see that our spiritual "DNA" is still at our very center of who we are. We were very confident in ourselves, our abilities and "our" vision. We when got married God spoke to us to leave Denver and in our minds we thought we'd take a short pause and return to ministry. We move to Georgia in 2000 and by Sept. 2001 my daughter was born and God wasn't very vocal in terms of our movement and/or location. Reagan had returned to his pre-YWAM profession of construction, a job that he dreaded quite honestly. We plugged along for a couple of years realizing all the while emotionally we had to settle and put down roots until God told us to move. When God finally did speak it wasn't necessarily what we wanted to hear. He said business was our ministry and we had to step it up and think big business. WOW! The minute God spoke we knew in our hearts we heard right and yet that would begin a "new" and unexpected season. This era of life was met with grief over our desire to serve God in the particular way we felt God was leading us. On top of grief was inexperience in business and a miscarriage that left it's mark on my faith that I would carry for a few years. This life was not what we had ordered but we threw ourselves into God and we trusted Him for the grace to live this plan and flourish in it. For 10 years we constructed homes and remodeled houses. We gave to missions and our prayer was "Lord, if we can't go or serve you the way we planned, then we are serving here and giving every resource and ounce of time till we see your kingdom come and your will done in our life." Our family became a team. We included our kids and we planted them in New Hope. We have seen them pray, serve the church and find who they are in Christ in the house of God. So here we are 10 years later and wouldn't you know it, God speaks to us and says, "It's a new season and you have a new mission." In January in a subtle and stirring way God is giving us the gift of serving in a leadership role. We are now serving The City Young Adult Ministry at New Hope. I laugh at our youthful arrogance and immature zeal 10 years ago. We're asking the Lord for wisdom when we feel inadequate and we are asking for anointing because we know without it we will certainly crash and burn. Our children are asking how they can be part of this and we are letting them as much as is reasonable. I could write about The City and how excited we are as God is speaking clearly and giving specific instructions. I could tell you that this is a God dream come true but it's not a smooth or easy process. This is what I can tell you about God as I live and learn who He is. He never changes His mind concerning you. He doesn't work on a time table that resembles ours or build us like we would prefer. He isn't consumed with our happiness but gives us joy in dark places. God allows life and the enemy to shake us and though pain is involved, He won't allow the enemy to brake us. When circumstances are out of control if we react with faith and generosity of heart, He will overwhelm us with understanding and peace. The placement of God may be ever-changing locationally but the move of God in our life is sustaining. Offer all of you to God and you have nothing to fear but offer less and those pockets of life will be full of fear and contention. I still get scared, I fail, I'm not always the wife, mother, or friend I wish I were. I'm not always the daughter of God I want to be. I'm awkward, fall into temptations that I shouldn't and I'm not always fair. Here's the anchor and the hope I have...He who started this good work in me is faithful to take it to completed places! Whatever or wherever you are my challenge is this, filter your life through your identity with Christ. We are to be like Christ. When we filter who we are, our responses, and our future on that we are rock solid. When we filter through our fear, reasoning, and wisdom we will live in the same reality with a extremely different outlook. Filters we all have em!

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